22/9/06

// feeling :: tired, exhausted, restless
// prayer for :: tomorrow's seminar

I had a great day today. I'd wanted to meet Mike and Belle and do something before Cell starts. So the final plan was to go to my place at Dover to watch some anime. They wanted to meet at 10am -.- I had such a hard time waking up. I was nearly late too haha..Had stomachache at the busstop..

First we watched Karas, an anime dvd that Mike just bought. It was ok la but we kind of talked thru most of the show hahah! Always had to rewind and stuff like that.

Then nothing to do..Nothing to eat. Ordered KFC..It was ok lah but it could've been better. hehz..We ordered Crispy but got original instead. It was okay lah...Then I watched Belle and Mike play Vampire Night on PS2..Sry I had to make one of you use the game controller! I only have one gun xD

haha the stuff at my house really CMI..I pissed them off so much:

1. Belle's PS2 games cant work on my PS2
2. Wanted to play Vampire Night but cannot find gun
3. Found gun but found CD missing
4. Tried other games I had but desired ones cant work
5. Found the CD but had to use game controller in place of the gun for 2-player
6. Wanted to watch Tintin but cannot connect to TV

Lol! And I'm ashamed to say I was no help at all! xD All I did was sit there and laugh. Mike was the genius; he fixed almost everything. I'm so cheena. I dun even know how to work the stuff in my house.

So watched The Adventures Of Tintin on vcd. Watch until everyone sian. HAHAHA..Then I suddenly remembered that I have the game Monopoly at home. AIYA too bad I didnt think of it sooner. It was so fun.

We laughed at each other when we had fines to pay or had to go to jail. It was so fun ! In the end Belle got the most money..She got strategy sia...

Zz..It got interesting..Then Sis Cat came alr. So after awhile we stopped the game.

Today's Message was about regret.

I thought it was no big deal...Yeah, just a message about one of life's issues in a Biblical form. So I didnt pay extra attention or what.

Then she asked about our regrets that we remember most clearly.

To my surprise, I couldnt think of anything. Surely I would have regrets some point in time in my life, but I just couldnt remember. I either couldnt or didnt want to..

How to lead a life of no regrets? Simple.

I was taught that actually, the best way to lead a life of satisfaction is to believe in Jesus wholeheartedly and willingly. To trust in Him fully, to love Him and serve Him.

For in John 14:12 (NLT) says:

I tell you the truth, anyone who believes in me will do the same works I have done, and even greater works, because I am going to be with the Father.

So basically when the four disciples of God, Simon, Andrew, James and John (Mark 1:16-20), left everything they had to follow Jesus when He called them, they were not not regretful. Surely they thought, "ah, why did I leave my life as a fisherman to follow this man? I should not have done that".

But the thing is that, they received so much in return for their faith.

If you noticed, I underlined the word wholeheartedly in the previous paragraph..I find that is really the core of everything..One of the most important values a Christian should have.

Sure, in my whole life I've met many people. Growing up in a Christian school, I've met more Christian compared to non-Christians. So I've seen many Christians. I've seen quiet ones and humble ones. But I rarely see those who are on fire for Him.

Oh, nonchalant Christians are everywhere! Okok, almost everywhere. Not good to generalize -.- But yala its something that we cant ignore...People who go, "Aiya..Church tomorrow..Sian lor..Can dont go anot?" and stuff like that.

For me, I grew up that way. My parents forced me to go to church. They never taught me the true love of God. I said the sinner's prayer myself just because my parents said it was right. I was just trying to be the good kid.

Following God takes a lot of courage. Even going for alter calls. Raising your hand in P&W, worrying about what other people will think.

I for one, dont know how to give all of myself. But I simply do it for myself. I want to give all to Him cuz I want all of Him. I make right decisions, but with wrong reasons.

I've been making empty promises to Him lately. I said I'd change, but He just made me realise that He's still waiting for that promise to be fulfilled. Ok to spend time on friends and movies and arcade but not willing to spend time with your first Love.

I should not let other people affect my decision to follow Jesus. My Christian friends has been very critical about the amount of time I spend in church and cell. I usually get into disagreements with them and all would end up feeling lousy about themselves.

I refrain from talking to them about God. I get a lot of negative vibes from them whenever I want to share something spiritual with them, either a personal encounter with the Holy Spirit or something that struck my heart in service.

Thats why now, I dont really talk about God publicly. Only to cell friends whom I know will appreciate my sharing, like what I'm doing now.

Ah ok ok..I've been saying too much. Hehz..The message today impacted me.

Lord, thank You for today's message. I pray that You will help me lead a life of no regrets. Help me learn how to trust You and follow You! Amen. <3